I began composing the work that would eventually become Why I Didn’t Go to Your Funeral in 2010, and when I read these new poems publicly a strange thing occurred. Whereas at previous readings my work mostly elicited the generic I-Liked-That-One-Poem-About-X reaction from polite listeners, audience members now came up after and began confessing their own difficulties with death and grief. A woman in Vermont broke down crying while she discussed the loss of her husband. In a San Antonio poetry bar, a middle-aged man stared down into his Lone Star can and spoke to me about his mother’s suicide.
While this was not what I expected, I am all too aware of the place contemporary poetry occupies for most people: They reach for poems when they’re in love or when they’re coping with death. By writing through my own grief, I’d inadvertently touched upon a topic that people seemed eager to discuss aloud. As I’ve continued to read from this book, I’m always struck by the taboo nature of this subject. And to be clear, the subject isn’t death itself, but how those of us left behind seem unable to engage with our grief in a public way. There simply doesn’t appear to be a space for this engagement outside a psychiatrist’s office.
Poetry therapists and other psychiatric scholars have been studying the effects of poetry on trauma for some time now. In Writing to Heal: A Guided Journal for Recovering from Trauma and Emotional Upheaval, James Pennebaker discusses the clinical benefits of writing through grief. The findings include grief writing’s beneficial effects on the immune system, as well as reduced blood pressure, heart rate, and muscle tension levels. Similarly, studies have shown ingesting art or music that matches the depth of your loss can also provide rewards. A 2014 study that appeared on PLOS’s (Public Library of Science’s) online journal ONE posits that there are four main reasons why people listen to sad music when they’re sad: It activates the imagination, regulates emotion, provides empathy, and releases the listener from causal implication. I don’t think it’s much of a stretch to say that poetry often provides these same benefits for bereaved readers.
Put more simply, poems about grief offer us language at times when we can’t come up with our own. This occurs on all levels of catastrophe. In the wake of the 9/11 attacks, poems were tacked to billboards and buildings in the vicinity of Ground Zero, and impromptu memorials containing poetry popped up on the subways, bus stops, construction boarding, and other public areas of the city. As New Yorkers ambled the streets in the aftermath, they found poetry everywhere, written in an attempt to give form and voice to the immensity of a tragedy that had unvoiced so many. Nearly all this poetry was written by loved ones in memoriam to their lost family, friends, and spouses; I point this out only to highlight how the voices of poets, all combined, defined the scope of the attacks on an individual level first. Each poem about grief speaks to a single loss which, set against the shared experience of loss, has far-reaching impacts on readers.
The most famous poems about grief find their way into mainstream culture, in movies or TV shows or works of popular prose. Rather than this phenomenon marking these poems as, perhaps, “easy” or “basic,” I view such inclusions of poetry as proof of grieving’s difficulty. Even gifted screen and teleplay writers can’t come up with better language for coping with death, and instead of writing their own poems for the death scene, they rely on poets to convey to audiences how their characters are feeling. I take this as both a compliment to the difficulty of writing good poems and as a somewhat problematic comment on the austerity of poetry (as in, “poems are only good for solemn occasions,” which is complete and total bullshit of the highest magnitude; see Etheridge Knight’s “Feeling Fucked Up” as a good example of poetry’s apathy toward notions of purist solemnity).
In light of these recent revelations and occurrences surrounding my own poetry, I began looking back through some of the most well-known grief poems that informed my work and the works of others. And as I did research into some of these poems, I found that many had interesting or—in certain cases—heartbreaking provenances surrounding their making.
I’ve included a few lines from each poem, just as a refresher for any reader who needs a reminder. And, for my purposes here, please keep in mind that I’m using the term “grief” loosely. Some of the poems hold the tenor of grief more than the subject matter. But, as is the case for so much of poetry, conveying the feeling is usually more important than getting the facts precisely accurate. These are simply some poems that informed my learning to write about my own grief.
1.“Funeral Blues,” W. H. Auden
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
I know. But what list of grief writing would be complete without the reigning granddaddy of popular funeral poems? This one famously appears in the 1994 British film Four Weddings and a Funeral, and since then has taken on a life of its own. And while the character in the movie speaks the lines with sincere gravitas, one of the more famous poetry anecdotes is that this poem began as an ironic take on a politician’s passing. In a satirical play co-authored by Auden and Christopher Isherwood, The Ascent of F6, the elegy is actually sung by a pair of political lackeys at the funeral of a protagonist, Sir James, whose murder atop the fictitious F6 peak has become a transnational bargaining chip. In this setting, the feelings it evokes are the polar opposite of its contemporary use. Sir James, a colonial magistrate of some kind, asks his mountaineer brother, Michael, to accompany him and scale the border-straddling mountain to plant a flag in its summit for the pride of Britain. When they reach the top, Michael murders James before dying of exhaustion himself. The national pride evinced by James’s death is summed up by the song, and in the play its use reeks of unrealized catharsis and political hubris. The last stanza of the original poem concludes with instructions for burial:
And Gunn, of course, will drive the motor-hearse:
None could drive it better, most would drive it worse.
He’ll open up the throttle to its fullest power
And drive him to the grave at ninety miles an hour.
Later, Auden changed the poem’s last three stanzas when he decided to use it as an earnest elegy to a friend and singer he’d admired, Hedli Anderson. After the edited version’s appearance in Auden’s 1940 book Another Time, the poem’s ironical genesis was largely washed away. Today, the poem is routinely recited or sung at funerals.
It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.
What people often overlook about Poe’s poetry is that almost all of it contained some component of love or grief. “The Raven,” is, indeed, a grief poem as well, with the perpetually frustrated narrator lamenting the passing of his beloved “Lenore.” Another thing people forget about Poe is that, when he wasn’t wracked by melancholy or (possibly) alcoholism, he was an egomaniac. After completing “The Raven,” he quickly proclaimed it “the greatest poem ever written,” and carried a copy of it in his pocket to read at any bar or gathering where the crowd seemed amenable. Conversely, “Annabel Lee” was composed as a dirge for his cousin-wife, Virginia. The couple lived with Virginia’s mother near New York City, in an airy cottage he hoped would help cure her consumption. They were so poor that, as Virginia wasted away, neighbors brought the family food, fuel for heat, and even gave them the feather bed that Poe’s wife would die on, in 1847. Seven months prior to his own death, Poe completed “Annabel Lee” while starved, half-insane, and overcome with the perpetual grief that came to define his life.
When I am dead, my dearest,
Sing no sad songs for me;
Plant thou no roses at my head,
Nor shady cypress tree:
Be the green grass above me
With showers and dewdrops wet:
And if thou wilt, remember,
And if thou wilt, forget.
Rossetti’s religious fervor was bisected by her brittle, lovelorn longing for meaning on earth. Home-schooled, artistically talented, Rossetti led a cloistered life with her notoriously Grey Gardens-ish family in London. At the age of 17, she fell in love with a Roman Catholic man who, at first, resolved to convert to her beloved Anglicanism. Then, after coming to terms with how the Church of England was, let’s say, problematic, he un-converted. For the remainder of her life, Rossetti was haunted by the conflict between her religion and her desire. One day, when she saw her former Roman Catholic suitor on a London street, she fainted from lovesickness. “When I am Dead, My Dearest,” is a strange poem in that it was written just before her relationship ended, but it displays the logics of fatal grief from depression. Rather than consider moving forward with her life, Rossetti posits her own death and how forgettable she should be in the scheme of Christian redemption. The poem’s meaning, taken through the lens of how her faith reinforced her romantic solitude, breaks my heart. It feels as though she’s trying to convince herself that heaven is all the reward she’ll need, even as her mortal body cries out for human contact.
First, I emptied the closets of your clothes,
threw out the bowl of fruit, bruised
from your touch, left empty the jars
you bought for preserves. […]
I came upon this poem at just the right time in my grieving. Trethewey’s use of the “stuff” that remains after losing a loved one is important in that it represents an entry point into the thinking the survivor does. Every object becomes a reminder when you have to clear out their house or pack up their things. The backstory here is also a tragic one. After years of domestic abuse, the poet’s mother finally left her second husband, Trethewey’s stepfather. Shortly after their divorce, Trethewey’s stepfather shot her mother in the head at close range, killing her instantly. It’s this remembrance of her mother in the things she touches that makes “After Your Death” a poignant revelation. The poem ends on a hopeful note: “I’m too late, / again, another space emptied by loss. / Tomorrow, the bowl I have yet to fill.”
I’ve been thinking: This is what the living do. And yesterday, hurrying along those
wobbly bricks in the Cambridge sidewalk, spilling my coffee down my wrist and sleeve,
I thought it again, and again later, when buying a hairbrush: This is it.
Parking. Slamming the car door shut in the cold. What you called that yearning.
I came to understand that one technique the poetry of grief employs is jarring disjunction. The lucid moments between the hectic ones are where the grief recharges; the aggrieved person fumbles through their life, which is now a secondary life devoid of the person they’ve lost. If you’re dealing with grief this heavy, it begins to feel like you can actually watch yourself living amid the daily reality that someone else is not. In Howe’s case, her brother passed in 1989 due to complications related to AIDS. This is an outstanding poem for both its wild, associative leaps and the intimate tone, which resembles a letter to the deceased. The departed “you” is on prominent display here, too, as it is in many of the grief poems I came to admire.
I remember how I died. It was so simple!
One morning the garden faded. My face blacked out.
On my left side they made the first incision.
They washed my heart and liver in palm wine—
My lungs were two dark fruit they stuffed with spices.
They smeared my innards with a sticky unguent
And sealed them in a crock of alabaster.
If there is one relatively unknown poet whose work I recommend above all others, it is Thomas James. Poets who find him hold him closely; I was gifted a first edition of Letters to a Stranger, his only book, a few years ago, and I can’t bring myself to expose it to open air, let alone remove it from its plastic case to read it. James is Plath’s direct poetic descendent. He, too, died at the age of 27, though the circumstances surrounding his death are very strange (pronounced a suicide, the gunshot wound to his temple was on the left side of his head, despite his being right-handed). Many of the poems in Letters aren’t grief poems in the traditional sense, but James wrote a number of poems from the point of view of the dead. “Mummy of a Lady Named Jemutesonekh” is one such piece, and its violent, detailed description of the mummification process works as a counterpoint to the persona of the girl who, as a result of this procedure, feels “important” and “a precious object.” James is a haunting poet whose voice feels the very embodiment of grief at the human condition. His parents died within 10 days of each other in 1972; indeed, his entire family (save a sister) was gone. Whereas Plath’s voice skews toward the stormy and ironic, James tends to ruminate on thanatopsis and the impossibility of human joy after accepting our mortality. Letters to a Stranger went out of print shortly after its publication in 1973. For years, it existed solely in photocopied editions exchanged in secret among grad students and excited young poets. It was finally republished in 2008.
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